all my friends are wolves

sydthelemur replied to your post: christinathena replied to your post: i am crying…

Could you call 911? If they are not picking up… then 911 may be your best bet…

i called 9-1-1 and they told me to call the clarksville police department so i did

and they said they’d send an officer out to check on him, and get back to me (i gave them my number)

i am still really scared but i feel slightly better now

i really fucking hate it when people call the police on me, but it has saved my life before

god i fucking ruined everything

i can’t stop crying

i should just keep taking pills and overdose

i should just die

everything i touch gets destroyed

christinathena replied to your post: i am crying about steven he still won’t answer …

Please stop taking the pills. If you think he may have seriously hurt himself, then, yes, I think you should call his mother or anyone who could do something

i just called his mom and this man answered and i asked if his mother was there… and the man sad, “you damn idiot, quit calling here”

i replied, “i’ve never called here before…”

and he said, “oh, i bet you haven’t” and hung up

i don’t

…

maybe they got steven’s phone or something and they’ve seen me call

maybe they’re mad at me

or maybe they thought i’m his ex-wife?  she’s been calling there…

fuck i don’t know

oh god what have i done

i am crying about steven

he still won’t answer

and i keep taking more pills

i

i can’t stop

i hurt too much… i’m in so much pain over this

i never meant that they were better than you steven

that’s not what i meant!

yes they feel wonderful but you are more fucking wonderful than them!

i tried calling the clarksville retirement home (where he stays) but no one’s picking up

there’s got to be a line that’s open… i know for a fact nurses are awake right now there

it’s in arkansas, in clarksville (obviously), on central street

should i try calling his mom?

please help me…

i don’t know what to do…

i don’t even know if they’ll release information to me but i’ve got to try…

sydthelemur replied to your post: sydthelemur replied to your post: sydthelemur…

Ah, thank you for correcting me! I have a hard time remembering the spelling. I think it might be because I’ve only seen Lu (I can’t remember her full name right now) call you that. Like, “Damien’ll back soon!” But, anyway, you’re very welcome.

I go by many names… Damien, Alex, Alexander, Cas, Casien.  My birth name was “Alexandria”, so some people call me “Alex”.  It’s what I’m called offline.  Online you’re more likely to see “Damien”. Lu tends to call me “Damien”, but Kip tends to call me “Alex” because that’s what she’s used to before I decided I was a trans man and took on the name “Damien” officially.

A friend online came up with “Casien”, a combination of Castiel (a character from Supernatural) and “Damien”, since I love Castiel and really relate to him because I’m a lot like him.  I took that on as a second name because I liked it so much, so now some people who’ve met me recently will call me “Casien” or “Cas”.

I’m a confusing person!

the-last-secret-garden:

pumpernickelandcoal:

As long as people are reading, I don’t understand judging them for the medium in which they read.

Same. Why is it such a big deal? I went through a phase where I didn’t like reading paper books because everything I wanted was in hardcover and it’s cumbersome and I would read them on my laptop instead.

TOO BAD.

I was still reading. I really can’t understand why it’s some kind of war.

This also kind of offends me (oh noes) because I prefer reading books on my Kindle than on paper because my autism makes me particular to certain textures.  I hate the feel of paper - it’s too much sensory overload for me at times.  Too much sensory overload makes me incredibly anxious, and can send me into “meltdowns” and panic attacks.

Why am I being judged for that?  It’s not something I can help.  No matter what the reason, as said above, why the fuck does it matter?  People are still reading.  It’s the same information being delivered in the same way, except the materials are different.

A book is a book is a book, and reading is reading is reading, no matter what the medium.

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downloading the avengers

gonna watch it to see what all the fuss is about

mostly just an excuse to stare at robert downey jr. really

geez i am incredibly gay

sydthelemur replied to your post: sydthelemur replied to your post: steven cut and…

You’re welcome, Damian. [hugs]

damien, not damian :)

but thank you so much though, really

hugs back

thefoolforlife:

weepingdemon:

I fixed my folders

THESE ARE THE MOST RELEVENT DESCRIPTIONS OF ALL WHAT IS RELEVANT TO SUPERNATURAL.

sydthelemur replied to your post: steven cut and burned himself after reading my…

I don’t know who Steven is (or, rather, I don’t know who he is exactly), or what your religious affiliation is, but… I’ll be praying for you both, okay?

steven is my boyfriend

i believe in god, but do not belong to any one religion.  it’s kind of my own…?

but praying is fine

thank you